hey,guys :(
I am really sad this few days.
there is a boy I like and he likes me too.
On Wednesday Night the boy ask me to be his girlfriend.I said that I will tell my answer in PD ( Self Development) time. I want to think about it first.
because he is Nana's ex. If I said YES at the moment,I think it will break Nana's heart.Hopefully I do said to her about this thing. And she was agree that HE and I be a couple.
Then, his friends know bout this at-first-was-happy-thing, his friends said " say YES to him! he is a nice guy :)"then, when the break, I think HE was telling something that I will never know to His friends.
His friends come to me and said , " cekk, how bout you ask HIM about does he serious to you?"then I reply , " please, I don't want, I don't know why I am so afraid and shy"
His friends and I were talking about him when we study about Art, hopefully the teacher didn't notice about that.I asked one of his friends "what should I do? Should I say YES or NO?''then he said " just ask HIM, does He really want you to be his girlfriend?"
I : "but before this, you said that just accept him! why you change your mind?"
friend 1 : "yeah, I admit that, but that was before he said about his excuses"
I : " what excuses?? tell me!"
friend 1 : " you can't know about it, family business"
friend 2 : " HE is plinplan*, you better ask him"
I : " O.K . I had decided, I don't want to know about it anymore. I don't want to ask him, if he is not serious with me, that mean that he was fooling my feeling. If that was true, I better slap him,and I don't want to talk to him anymore!"
friend 1 and 2 : "do you really want to slap him?"
I : " YEAH! if he is not serious"
after school, friend 2 tell to HIm that I wanna to slap him.
then, when I was in home, HE called me and said : "I'M SORRY, I WAS CONFUSE,SUDDENLY I REMEMBER ABOUT MY PARENTS, DO YOU REALLY WANT TO SLAP ME? I'M SORRY, SO SORRY,ARE YOU ALRIGHT? COULD WE BE FRIENDS LIKE BEFORE?"
he hurt me so deep, I don't want this thing continue to hurt me , then I said " yeah, we could be friends again, I like the wrong guys"
actually,I want to cry out loud, but I said to myself " don't cry causes boys, you still have your best friends and friends, why you should cry causes the boy that hurt you. there are NO BENEFITS!"
we be friends again, although that I still sad, and I can't look his face more than 5 second.he had already break my heart into pieces.
LOVE IS SUCK